Sometimes I think about why I even chose the school I did for college. When I was applying for colleges I decided to just apply anywhere and ended up applying to 12. All, but two were in California. I was not completely sure if I even wanted to stay in California so I chose to apply to two out-of-state colleges, Oregon and Washington. After my choices of colleges came in, I had no idea what I even wanted to study. I could have studied linguistics or kinesiology. But I chose Cinema Studies in Oregon.
Why Oregon and Cinema Studies? Well... Damn I don't know. I went to visit the school like a week before the official deadline to accept. I did not hate it. Also I had the expectation that I would get a "WHOA THIS IS MY SCHOOL" moment, which clearly did not happen. But I just went with it. I thought, "Hey! Cinema Studies is different and seems cool. I like movies. Why not?" And thats how I decided to go to Oregon.
Another more personal and less "lets just go with it" attitude reason to my decision for Oregon was my realization my Junior year. I was place in an AP English class with the most ridiculous people. They were not ridiculous per say, but I did not agree with them on anything. I realized that I did not want to be surround by this kind of people when I went to college. I wanted college to be a whole new experience for me with new people. After all I went to high school with a lot of people I knew starting from Kindergarten. I needed new faces. I also realized as I mentioned before that I was not even sure if I even wanted to stay in California!
My friend and I were discussing the paths we take regarding to society's expectations. We are both majoring in things we are interested and do not really have a plan. What society expects younger generations is to have their shit together. We are constantly told that we need to have a life plan or goal. We are even asked when we don't really know anything about life around the time we begin forming sentences what we want to do. No one ever knows what they want to do. We want things, but what we want to do is totally different. We shouldn't be telling our kids that they need to decide what path they will be taking. That's why the show Girls is so powerful when discussed. It brings up the question of why do we need to know what we want.
I knew that what I wanted from college was to become someone different. I felt that the only way for me to get out of my shell was to go somewhere where no one really new me and just put myself out there. So thats what I did. I feel like after I decided to be like that everything just fell in place.
I knew that what I wanted from college was to become someone different. I felt that the only way for me to get out of my shell was to go somewhere where no one really new me and just put myself out there. So thats what I did. I feel like after I decided to be like that everything just fell in place.
It is important to sometimes just let things fall into place. Thats what I wanted to do with my college experience. I thought that cinema studies would be really interesting. I also thought that going out of state would be better for me. I needed space from my peers of 13 years. And everything fell into place for me. I fell in love with Oregon. I found the best friends I have ever had. I got to know someone I didn't know too well from my K-12 experience. I'm taking interesting classes. I fell in love. Sometimes thats what anyone really needs, a little push. I took the initiative to give myself that push. It was important for me to get away from everyone and I needed it so badly.
Cheers,
Claire
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