What is love?
Is love not caring how the person is at times? Is it finding the little things adorable? Is it snoring? I don't know what to do with this whole love business. Maybe I just watch way too many films and have an unrealistic point of view of how relationships should begin and continue.
With him I feel like I can take my time. Kissing and making out is just part of showing my interest in him. I love talking to him about philosophical problems and life and films. We can have actual conversations and I'm not afraid. So now, is this what we call love? Or is it just plain admiration?
I wonder if we grow to love people. I feel that at my age now, I know a little bit more about love. But what age will I know for sure that I am absolutely in love? My mother or adults in general, always say that young people have no idea what love means. Does love in this current society equal to being financially stable together and raising a family? What does it mean now? Is it the butterflies, the thoughts, the anticipation? I wish adults wouldn't say that they know better. They don't know any better. There are many adults who believe they know the meaning, but honestly there is not true meaning. Meaning varies from person to person so it cannot be set in stone.
I wonder if I have ever loved. I believe I loved the last two in my life. They were special and hold a special place in my heart. Currently theres this one. I think I may love this guy. His little snores and leg twitching as he sleeps. The way he looks at me before we kiss. The way he kisses my neck and makes me feel amazing. His sense of style and classy air. How he loves films and physics, but hates math. Finding me totally cool and interesting. His drive to discover and travel. Honestly, this may be starting to sound like obsession to the max. But maybe not.
This relationship is just at its beginning. There are plenty more things to happen to us. I have never been so happy in my life. Like everything I've done and tried is finally paying off and I am the most impressive female out there. In terms of Evolution of Human Sexuality, I am quite successful and I will choose my mate.
Cheers,
Claire
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